September 30, 2011

The Real Life

Over the last couple of months I have been thinking a lot about my future. It is highly likely that at one point in your life you will get extremely confused and frightened about your future. And mine has already begun. Every single day, the same old questions are reappeared in my head, like, what my life would be like in the next 5 years? am I happy with my job? can I get my master degree abroad? are my future husband's salary and mine going to be enough to fulfill our needs? can I pursue my dreams? Things are getting more puzzled when I don't know exactly what I want and become afraid to choose the wrong way.

Once, after I graduated, I was sure to prepare myself in order to get a master degree in abroad. But my plan has changed since I heard about what people said and their words are growing in my mind. One of them said, gw mau cari kerja dulu, supaya gw bisa tau apa yang benar - benar gw suka dan gw inginkan. baru setelah itu gw S2. gw ga mau ilmu S2 gw sia-sia. While the other said, kalo udah S2 itu malah semakin berat bebannya. Setelah lo balik, pasti lebih besar tekanan buat cepat dapat kerjanya. And the bold words are the main reasons why I am not so sure to continue my study in the near future before I get the appropriate job. But I am not so sure either to have work experience in a long time, because I realize that to study abroad and get the scholarship for it, is seriously not easy. Like my mom always reminds me, kalau kamu serius mau S2 ya harus mulai persiapan dari sekarang. Minimal persiapan untuk S2 dan beasiswa itu setahun. Hence, I have to find the job that would fit me best. 

As most people say, looking for the right job is like looking for a future husband. We will only take the one we love and comfort with. But how can we know? It can only be answered when we attempt to live with them. Unfortunately, we have our limits and we can't spend most of our time to try from one to another. So that, we should think twice (or more) before decide. And here I stuck with my own limitation to think before I apply for a job. It seems like there always something doubtful in every job that makes my mind become different EVERYDAY. I have been influenced a lot by various different people at various different talk and perception. I've tried over and over again to ensure myself to focus on one thing. But, every time people said A, I'm gonna think again about it, then agree with them. And when the other ones said B, I do the same thing. Yeah, you can call me plin - plan, so much.  

But after all of that confusing days, tired with my own fear and try to find out why I became so frightened and anxious like this, I know I forgot one thing. Totally believe and surrender to God. Humans can only plan, but the rest is up to God's will. He determines everything. And eventually, I feel much relieved. I know I gave my best efforts to pursue what I want right now. So, there is nothing left to do but pray and being sincere with His will.   

 Say: "Nothing can happen to us except what Allah has ordained for us. He is Our Master. It is in Allah that the believers should put their trust." (At-Taubah : 51)

September 26, 2011

Photo taken by Anissa Chairudea. Edited by me.

 Purple haze all in my brain
Lately things don't seem the same
Excuse me while I kiss the sky

Purple haze all around
Don't know if I'm going up or down

Help me, help me
I don't know
Can't go on like this  

Jimi Hendrix - Purple Haze

A Turning Point


Scarf : Uniqlo. Jumpsuit : Gaudi. Ring : Handmade. Necklace : Bunda's. Shoes : Melissa

September 20, 2011

Sometimes, you must give up the life you had planned, in order to have the life that is waiting for you


September 16, 2011

Yeah, I Wish I'd Never Grown Up

 ♪ Take pictures in your mind of your childhood room
Memorize what it sounded like when your dad gets home
Remember the footsteps, remember the words said
And all your little brother's favorite songs  

  I just realized everything I have
Is someday gonna be gone
Oh, I don't wanna grow up, wish I'd never grown up
Could still be little
Oh,  I don't wanna grow up, wish I'd never grown up
It could still be simple  

Taylor Swift - Wish I'd Never Grown Up

September 15, 2011

Bistro Baron ♥



 Bistro Baron is located in Plaza Indonesia, Jakarta.

September 11, 2011

The Art of A Bag

I used to wonder why my mom's and older sister's bag are always heavier than mine and seem full of stuffs in it. Does a woman have to carry so many stuff everytime she wants to go outside of her house? Is every single thing in the bag important? I never had any satisfying answer till I find it out by myself, when I am already a (career) woman. Solemnly, being an adult is one of the hardest part in my life. Complicated, too much seriousness and tense. Well, do you carry the same things as mine in your bag?            

My mom is an organized person and so she had taught me to be like that. One of the littlest thing is how  you can organize your bag. You can't put all the stuffs into one space. Not only would it make you harder to find the one you want among some of the things, but also quicken your stuffs and the bag becomes dirty. Hence, I classify the similar ones and split them into different pouch.        

There are five pouches (no : 1-3-4-6-7), an environmental bag (2) and an umbrella (5)

Pouch (1) is stuffed with Ipod and headphone

Pouch (2) are perfume, some of make up kits, tissue and glasses wiper

Pouch (3) is filled with agenda, note book and novel

Pouch (4) is a stationery

Pouch (5) is the most important thing of all : hand phone and wallet 

All the stuffs in my bag

September 10, 2011

Choose a job you love, and you will never have to work a day in your life


September 09, 2011

Jacket & Scarf : Pasar Senen. Belt : Gaudi. Blue Pants : Mango. 
Bag : Calvin Klein. Clogs : Rubi.

September 04, 2011

501 Must Visit Cities

501 Must Visit Cities book is available at Kinokuniya & Periplus bookstore

September 01, 2011

Dangerous & Sweet

All these words we speak casually  
Well, maybe I'm just weak, but it hurts me  
Everything you said, everything you said
Everything you said, well it cuts like a knife  
It hurts me deep inside 

I know that you are just like me oversensitive  
We're an ordinary breed  
Taking everything for much more than it means  
Well, it's dangerous and it's sweet  
Cut us and we bleed

Lenka - Dangerous and Sweet